still.

i dreamed of you and me
and a love that burned so strong,
it lit the day.
i wished that we could be,
so hard i thought my will
would light the way.

but every thing you lacked
was more
than all you thought your heart desired,
and every time i took you back
my tears
had already dampened our fire.

gone, gone, gone...
we finally reached that day,
so now i'm gone, gone, gone,
i ran out of reasons to stay.
but i took the best of you -
he IS the best of you.
and now, what's left of you
makes me wonder why i stayed...
why did i stay?

yearning...

...for
inspiration,
creative outlets,
sensory stimulation,
vibrance,
romance,
the countryside,
a mountainside,
a full blown fit of laughter,
a new start,
a do-over on some old starts,
an afternoon nap,
an up-all-night-just-talking-about-everything&nothing sesh,
a kiss that begs nothing more,
emersion in His presence,
me-ness...to feel like me again, for the first real time...